10:18 PM

Writing every day is hard.

I'd like to be an author someday, though. So, I'm going to have to stick with it.

It isn't hard because writing is difficult, but rather finding the time to write is very hard.

I'm going to keep at it though.

Best wishes,



What do I do with my life? The question every senior in high school is currently wondering.

9:49 PM

(Disclaimer: The point of this post is mostly a rant. I learn a lot in school, and highly value the education I've been blessed with. However, it can sometimes get out of control, and a lot of students barely have time to do the things that they love anymore. That's my only point. I wish I had more time for the things I love, so that I can figure out a job that allows me to do what I love, without doing the things that I do not love.)

I'm a senior in high school, and while you many think, "Boy, do I wish I could go back to that time; those were the best days of my life," I suggest you think again. 

Being in high school isn't the same as it used to be, and it's mostly the pressure of the future that's so haunting to all of us. Starting freshmen year they begin telling you what colleges look for, classes that will prepare you for the ACT or SAT, what test scores you need, what honors classes you need to take, what extracurriculars you should participate in, what community service hours you're required to do...all while trying to figure out what you love to do, and how you want to spend your life. The system is becoming chaotic. Not all students will excel in every area; every student has strengths and weaknesses. Lets get this straight: Prerequisites are necessary; everyone should have a general knowledge of most things. We don't all need an extensive knowledge of every subject though, which was what some schools push.

I believe we should do what we're passionate about. My current problem is that I haven't found the time in the last four years to explore the things that I really enjoy doing thoroughly enough to decide what I want to do with my life after school. 

I love kids. I love to read (not classic literature). I love to write (creatively). I love helping people. 

I know what you're thinking: "Be a teacher, study english, become a doctor!"...I don't know if you remember, but it's not as easy as that. There are so many things that need to be taken into consideration when choosing a college and life path. 

I can tell you the amount of books I read fell way down after my first trimester freshman year. After that point I no longer had as much time. Educators will tell you to take classes in the subjects that you enjoy. Well, I could maybe fit one elective into my schedule if I really tried. At the same time, I must apply rigor to my schedule so that colleges see that I'm challenging my self. What's all this about challenging myself? Can't I just do what I love, make a difference in my community, learn the things I need to know, and be considered a good applicant? Isn't that being the best me, or "challenging myself"?

I'm not subtly complaining about my GPA in this post. You're reading a post by a 17 year old female with a 3.9. I'm fine. It's just that I somewhat regret not being able to explore all the opportunities I had to discover myself because I was at home trying to figure out the velocity of a package falling from a plane, or studying for a math test, or memorizing countless words that will go in one ear for the test and out the other right after. 

I just wish I knew what to do with my life, and sure "college is a time to figure out what you want to do, and find yourself", but preschoolers are being taught to read now-a-days; everything's happening earlier than it used to. Times are changing too fast for any student to keep up. 

Instead of being left with practical goals all I think about is becoming a best selling author, and the chances of that happening are slim to none. I'll try, of course, but I need a back up plan. 

I've got to come up with a back up plan. But first I need to finish my pre-calc homework, then finish the last 70 pages of Moby Dick, then study for an AP French quiz, and then finish my novel. 

What do you do with your life? Do you love it? I hope you do, and I hope I'm able to find the same happiness. 


audrey hepburn

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4:44 PM

Hi everyone!

Before I start, this is my cat sitting on me right now:

He's a real cuddle bug

Today I've decided to write about the women that I personally either look up to, or just think are plain beautiful. There's nothing wrong with a couple of small girl crushes : )
 Olivia Hussey  - "Have the confidence to be your own person"

Olivia played Juliet in Franco Zeffirelli's version of the Shakespeare romance in 1968. I mostly love her for her beauty, especially her smile. Her performance in the classic is great. She's very rightly considered one of the most beautiful women in the world by many. 

I've been told before that I look like her... While I see some features that may be similar, I'm not quite sure I'm "most beautiful woman in the world" material : ). I'm quite flattered by the compliment though.

♥ Audrey Hepburn ♥ - "Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, it's at the end of your arm. As you get older, remember you have another hand: the first is to help yourself, the second is to help others."
Oh, Audrey. 

Again, one of the most beautiful women to grace this planet. However, she was not keen on flaunting her beauty that often and actually said she kind of thinks she looks funny! What do you know ladies, even 'ole Audrey had her insecurities, which is normal : ) 

Even better, Audrey was in introvert, which very much appeals to me as I am one too. Who would've thought that Holly Golightly would actually be played by a thoughtful, shy woman!

 Zooey Deschanel ♥ - "I don't want to be a babe. I don't want vanity to ever get in the way, because I think to maintain that, you have to be aware of yourself all the time, and that gets in the way of acting. My job's not to be the beautiful person. My job is to be the best actor I can be."
You could say Zooey Deschanel takes first place on my girl crush list. Zooey just does Zooey, and that's part of what I admire about her. 

She sings and plays the ukulele, and other instruments. I sing and play the ukulele and other instruments. 

She's quirky and has her own style. I'm quirky and have my own style.

She acts and she has her own TV show....Okay, I don't do that, but you get the point, Zooey Deschanel is pretty much all around awesome. 

If you want to hear some of her music, her band is She and Him, and I definitely recommend them : )

"Always the aim for me is making people feel like they are not alone. That's just the greatest feeling."
"The fact that people are associating being girlie with weakness--that needs to be examined...Are we bitches because we have our own opinions? If that makes me a bitch, or that makes women bitches, then maybe we're all bitches."

You go girls (I mean, "bitches"), 


care card

From Michigan to Minneapolis and Back

11:35 PM


I've just gotten back from a mission trip with my church. We travelled 14 hours all the way from Michigan to Minnesota. Sadly, I don't have any pictures to share just yet, but perhaps I will in the future when they get uploaded. All week I got to work with kids at a camp in a slightly rough part of Minneapolis, I was placed with a girl named Leslie going in to the 9th grade. Not only was I able to bond with Leslie this week but also fellow Christians from my youth group, and others. I truly had an amazing time that enabled me to be a leader and also dive further into my faith.

Keep in mind, my blog is not going to be all about my faith, but it will be included as this is a big part of me :)

I retuned home yesterday after the long drive, showered, went to bed. When I woke up I was at loss of what to do, my last week had been jam packed with activities and service opportunities. It was really quite sad.

On this mission trip, they had envelopes lined all along one wall with all of our names on them. These envelopes were to house "Care Cards". "Care Cards" are cards that you write to people with words of encouragement, or thanks, or anything you really want I guess as long as it's kind. I decided to read these over while I was bored.

The cards mean a lot to me, some of the nicest things ever said to me are on them. I know it's somewhat wrong to care about other people's opinions of myself, but I do, especially when someone tells me something nice about myself. They influence the way I feel and act after I read them. They bring out my better qualities.

Even though I'm not going into much detail on this trip, I can tell you the most important lesson I learned was to never lose who I am. This was told to me in a care card. Experiences may knock me down but I shouldn't allow them to take away the sweet, gentle person that I am inside. 

Stay true to yourself, 


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