What do I do with my life? The question every senior in high school is currently wondering.

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(Disclaimer: The point of this post is mostly a rant. I learn a lot in school, and highly value the education I've been blessed with. However, it can sometimes get out of control, and a lot of students barely have time to do the things that they love anymore. That's my only point. I wish I had more time for the things I love, so that I can figure out a job that allows me to do what I love, without doing the things that I do not love.)

I'm a senior in high school, and while you many think, "Boy, do I wish I could go back to that time; those were the best days of my life," I suggest you think again. 

Being in high school isn't the same as it used to be, and it's mostly the pressure of the future that's so haunting to all of us. Starting freshmen year they begin telling you what colleges look for, classes that will prepare you for the ACT or SAT, what test scores you need, what honors classes you need to take, what extracurriculars you should participate in, what community service hours you're required to do...all while trying to figure out what you love to do, and how you want to spend your life. The system is becoming chaotic. Not all students will excel in every area; every student has strengths and weaknesses. Lets get this straight: Prerequisites are necessary; everyone should have a general knowledge of most things. We don't all need an extensive knowledge of every subject though, which was what some schools push.

I believe we should do what we're passionate about. My current problem is that I haven't found the time in the last four years to explore the things that I really enjoy doing thoroughly enough to decide what I want to do with my life after school. 

I love kids. I love to read (not classic literature). I love to write (creatively). I love helping people. 

I know what you're thinking: "Be a teacher, study english, become a doctor!"...I don't know if you remember, but it's not as easy as that. There are so many things that need to be taken into consideration when choosing a college and life path. 

I can tell you the amount of books I read fell way down after my first trimester freshman year. After that point I no longer had as much time. Educators will tell you to take classes in the subjects that you enjoy. Well, I could maybe fit one elective into my schedule if I really tried. At the same time, I must apply rigor to my schedule so that colleges see that I'm challenging my self. What's all this about challenging myself? Can't I just do what I love, make a difference in my community, learn the things I need to know, and be considered a good applicant? Isn't that being the best me, or "challenging myself"?

I'm not subtly complaining about my GPA in this post. You're reading a post by a 17 year old female with a 3.9. I'm fine. It's just that I somewhat regret not being able to explore all the opportunities I had to discover myself because I was at home trying to figure out the velocity of a package falling from a plane, or studying for a math test, or memorizing countless words that will go in one ear for the test and out the other right after. 

I just wish I knew what to do with my life, and sure "college is a time to figure out what you want to do, and find yourself", but preschoolers are being taught to read now-a-days; everything's happening earlier than it used to. Times are changing too fast for any student to keep up. 

Instead of being left with practical goals all I think about is becoming a best selling author, and the chances of that happening are slim to none. I'll try, of course, but I need a back up plan. 

I've got to come up with a back up plan. But first I need to finish my pre-calc homework, then finish the last 70 pages of Moby Dick, then study for an AP French quiz, and then finish my novel. 

What do you do with your life? Do you love it? I hope you do, and I hope I'm able to find the same happiness. 


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