I Outed Myself {On Accident}

10:00 AM


I'm sure most of you reading this have done something on the internet that you hope no one that you know ever sees. It might be a photo, a video, an old post from your middle-school self. For me, it was this blog.

I planned on telling my family, a few friends, some sorority sisters, etc., but I never planned on telling all of my FaceBook friends who are also hooked up to the Instagram app. Oops. I had wanted to post my most recent Instagram photo to my blog's FaceBook page, instead I linked my personal account with my blog Instagram, and everyone that I'm friends with on FaceBook got a notification that I had joined Instagram. 

I started getting random follows, and thinking how did you people find me? Until I realized what had happened. I wanted to melt. I called my roommate over to pour water on me so that I could turn to a puddle like the witch I felt my insides turning into. She didn't, and so I'm still here writing this post. 

There were a few things that I could do: a) I could delete the Instagram account. b) I could make the account private and delete my blog url from the description. or c) I could just grow up and live with it, accepting that this "mistake" would spread my blog to over 400 more people. 

First I chose B, because I'd already put so much effort into the account and I obviously couldn't choose A. Then, in the middle of my Educational Psychology class, I chose C. I chose C because I made this blog to share my writing and creativity with others. How is it going to be shared when I'm not even willing to share it with the people that I've met in real life?

It feels very vulnerable to me still, but from what I've learned, that means I'm in a good spot. That means I'm pushing myself to a state that I'm a little bit uncomfortable with, but not too uncomfortable with. It means I'm growing. 

I pictured God laughing at me, at how I'd made a fool of myself for accidentally sharing the account. Then I pictured God's belly laugh slowing down and turning into a warm smile, because maybe this is  meant to be. If others aren't supposed to see my blog, then why have it? Writing is a continual conversation with life that needs to be shared. 

Have you ever felt embarrassed by something a friend, acquaintance, or family member found on the internet about you? Let me know in the comments!

Thanks for reading, 


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26 comments

  1. Hi Brooke!

    You are a step ahead of me - I had my blog URL on my Instagram description for awhile and recently deleted it because I was afraid (thinking of putting it back though?).

    I also created two "secretive" blogs - and deleted them, before I settled on the one I have now. And I'm still pretty terrified about it! Only a handful of my friends know about it. Whenever I write a post, I link it to Twitter. I don't have as many close friends on my Twitter so I figured it was a safe way to go. But a few people did see it, and when I saw them next in person, they told me they'd read my blog (I blushed) but that they really enjoyed it.

    I love your blog so far and think it's simply great and has lots of potential. Keep it up, girl :)

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    1. Thank you so much for reading and taking the time to write this thoughtful comment!

      You should put your link back in your instagram, in my opinion! A lot of people in your life surely love to read what you have to say, and find it very cool that you're doing this blog! That's the response I've gotten so far, at least. There are always those people who will mock or criticize, but they probably aren't that close to you and might be having issues themselves. From what you've said, you've received mostly positive feedback so far from those who have seen it, and that's usually the way it is :)

      Thanks again for reading and thanks for the compliment :) I'm flattered. You keep up the great work too, and don't be afraid to share you creativity and writing with the world around you xx

      Brooke

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  2. I absolutely adore your blog Brooke! Honestly you should be extremely proud of yourself! :) amazing work! xx

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  3. I literally did the same thing on my blog instagram a couple weeks ago! It was weird, but made me feel better after I made everything public on facebook. Yeah, I do think God is smiling too.

    Stephanie :)
    petitepastels.blogspot.com

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    1. It feels so much better once you get it out! I'm glad you think so too :)

      Brooke

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  4. I tried to keep my blog a secret as well at first, well it still kind of is. Just the people closest to me like my family and my closest friends. I hesitated wether telling them or not at first because it's kind of something personal. You don't really want others to read because its kind of like your journal but then again your posting it online for others to see haha. It feels a lot better knowing that people already know so it's not like you have to keep hiding it :)

    -Crystal
    http://crystallizeddaisies.blogspot.com

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    1. You're so right about how personal a blog is! It's like an online diary sometimes. Whatever is on the internet is for anyone to see, though, which is so scary! I knew that I meant to share it with people, because or else I wouldn't have looked to the internet as an outlet. Thanks for reading :)

      Brooke

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  5. Hey Brooke!
    It's hard to put so much of yourself out in the open on the internet. There have been a couple posts that I happily shared to strangers, but felt weird let those I know best read it. It was like I wasn't sure if they'd look at me differently, even if it wasn't that personal. For me, writing has always been so exposing. I think you're doing a great job! Keep it up!

    Laura
    http://laurahager.blogspot.com

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    1. I get the same feeling a lot - about feeling like they might look at me differently. It's almost like I post a blog, and then I hang out with some friends and assume they're judging me, which they're totally not! Thanks so much for reading :)

      Brooke

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  6. This is such a great post, it really inspired me to not care about what people I know think about my blog, so thank you so much. I love your blog <3 x

    itseverythingerin.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Thank you so much Erin! Have a great weekend :)

      Brooke

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  7. Hi Brooke,

    I can definitely relate. Keep your mindset, stay true to yourself and you will go far. I enjoyed reading your post and look forward to reading more. :)

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  8. I love your blog! Your style is amazing!

    xo,
    Bri
    www.cityfashiongirl.com

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  9. YES! I've done this and felt that same sinking feeling...wishing you could stop time and reverse it just for a second so the "mistake" could be un-done. But, I'm glad you chose option C. There's definitely nothing wrong with "exposing" your blog and your friends should definitely be supportive! =)
    xo,
    nancy

    http://www.adoretoadorn.com

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    1. Thanks for reading, Nancy :) I'm glad that you feel the same way, so happy that I chose option C!

      Brooke

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  10. Quand je commencé mon blog, je ne voulais pas dire à personne. Au bout de 2 mois, j'ai commencé à parler autour de moi. C'était un peu bizarre, je voulais être lu mais pas pour tout le monde !

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    1. Oui c'est un peu bizarre, mais c'est amusement! Je reçois beaucoup du commentaire et j'adore lire et y répondre! Merci beaucoup pour lire mon billet de blog, et merci pour le commentaire en français :) (J'espère que c'est correcte!)

      Brooke

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  11. We've all been there some times in our life where we hesitate to share our work to people close to us because they might judge us, or read some embarrassing tidbits about our day. But it's good that you got over this fear of letting people know that your blog exists :) I was there once, around two years ago, only my best friends knew my blog. I started to evolve as months passed by and now I am happily sharing contents with those people I was once afraid to share them with. I'm happy that I did, though, because a lot of them actually commended my work, and for that I wasn't afraid anymore. :)

    Mimi | The Foxy Heroine

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    1. Thanks for the thoughtful reply, Mimi :) It sounds like you've been blogging for a while, and it's so great that you're able to share it with your friends and family!

      Brooke

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  12. I haven't done this yet, Brooke! But I'm sure it is inevitable since I put myself out there!! This is an interesting and perplexing problem in dealing with social media. Maybe we should all start using Snapchat since I hear the photos are only temporary!!

    http://www.brilliantearth.com/The-Finial-Ring-Platinum-BTR94710/

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    1. It is pretty inevitable when putting yourself out there for anything, especially on the internet. Oh well, it's pretty much what we signed up for, right?

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  13. I'm sure that this problem is inevitable and will happen at least once to many bloggers! My friends have mentioned my blog very loudly at school before (without meaning it) and people have heard. As embarrassing as it was at the time, they forgot because they didn't have the link. At least you gained (followers/readers) from your mistake!

    Jess
    http://springbaby06.blogspot.com

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    1. Ahh! That's the worst! Once you tell one person, you might as well tell them all :)

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