On Being Alone - Easter Sunday Reflection11:06 AM
I'm spending this Easter Sunday in my dorm room, alone. It's my first year at college, and we were only given Good Friday off to go home. I could've gone, but my mom and little brother are out of the country, and my step-dad and step-sisters were in Texas until last night; there wasn't really a point.
So I've been spending this weekend on a basically empty campus, binge-watching Gossip Girl and perfecting my blog design. I've had a lot of time to think.
I haven't been lonely. I like being alone, really. I do love being around people...I love making them laugh and smile, trying to bring out the best in them, but I'm still an introvert. In a college environment, it's hard to get time alone, and this weekend might have been exactly what I needed to refresh myself.
I never thought I could do a major holiday alone. I guess this is just a big sign that I'm growing up. And I'm happy about it. I can do things on my own without feeling alone. To me, that's a huge sign of security and being happy where you are as well as being happy with who you are.
Going into college, I was worried I'd end up one of those students who moves back home and lives there forever because they just couldn't handle being so far away from their family; I was worried I'd never grow as a person. I couldn't picture myself grocery shopping alone, not to mention living alone. Now it's all different - I want an apartment in a small city, where I can be creative as well as have the opportunity to have an impact on kids through teaching one day. I want to cook my own meals and design my own rooms. I want to live my life to the fullest.
Yes, you need people in your life to be there for you, and you need to reciprocate that and be there for them as well. But don't forget about yourself. Being alone is something that will happen to you a lot throughout life, even on Easter. It's worth it to become comfortable with just the voice in your mind and the presence of your own body.
Love yourself, but also know yourself and be with yourself. Think about the last time you were really alone, how did you feel? I hope it was a positive feeling.
Have a blessed Easter Sunday,